I mentioned previously in my 86th Digest that lately, due to circumstances in my personal life, I have been feeling down. I can't say I am miserable, because I'm not, but I have just wanted to rest more lately because, truth be told, I am mentally and physically (to a certain degree) tired, and with things that have happened recently, I feel like things have taken a toll on my stress levels.
You see, this week I have been made redundant. I don't want to make a sob story out of this, but the place where I mainly worked is closing due to financial issues, and a robbery in one of the two shops I (used to) work at did not help at all. I knew it would happen, but realising I no longer have a job has knocked me far worse than I thought, so I have that playing on my mind as well as the fact that now I have to find another job, 8 months shy of going off to University (if I go).
But even before all of this happened I decided to take a short (and unexpected) break from the internet for a few days, and I just relaxed and read my books, played with my niece or spent time with people, not once going on the internet or my laptop except for watching episodes of a show I had missed on TV, and honestly, I really enjoyed it. It was nice not having to feel like I needed to constantly check my Facebook, Twitter, e-mail or keep updated on the Idols I love... and I want that more, especially right now.
So that is why I have decided to go on an Internet Detox, or a break if you will. Completing my Digest today, I really felt like I wasn't putting in the effort I should be and that I really needed some sort of a break. I know I don't write a lot, but I do just want to break away from it and focus more on my personal life and try to relax some more as well.
I doubt that this will be long, I want to estimate a week or two, but I can't promise anything. I feel so bad for doing this, but right now I feel so distant from the online world that I think I really do need this. The circumstances I am currently in won't help with this feeling either, in fact I think it's the stress and worry I have right now that makes me want to do this more, so I think my wanting to take a break from blogging and the internet has come at a good time (in a sense). Honestly, I would rather come back to blogging happier than stay writing and feel depressed and down about myself when I could have done something about it.
I will keep up with my Digests, but they may come on Thursdays for a bit given how I am feeling, or even Fridays, and I might contribute to Selective Hearing, Idolminded and NekoPop a bit, but I won't write anything else on here until I feel up to it and like I am back to my normal self. It can take a week, or a bit longer. I don't know. I feel so bad for doing this, but I hope you all understand.
For these next few weeks, I will be looking for jobs, voluntary opportunities and sorting other things out like holidays and trips to where my future University is. I will be busy, but I will try and relax as well so that I don't get stupidly stressed, like I normally do. I will still be online, just not as much as I usually am.
When I next see you all in a regular Blog post, I hope that I will be a happier Chiima, one who has sorted out herself.